What should i do so i dont feel this way?

An aftnoon out to Prive, with Lamb – Yes that’s the nick i’m totally giving him
A guy who looks big and tough and all of prideful and like an alpha male.
I found him to be totally on the contrary.
A guy who totally has it all of the charisma(s) – if there is a plural for it even.

Sensitive and totally lends me a listening ear to rave and rant it all!

Glad to pick up this friend who used to be an ex-colleague in AXA.
Now in AIyAh. Ha! An irony! All the expensive brands here.

A view from Prive. Aftnoon coffee.
Que-Sera sera, when will i be ever staying opposite?
hur hur…..~

I so wanted and had cravings for chicken wing. Something sinful!
Been thinking about it since lunch hour!

And guess what, menu says:
Side dishes (after 6.30pm)
- Chicken Wings…
- Yada yada……

I was like SHIT~….

And so i thought, let’s decide coffee first then.
I wanted Hazelnut Latte, they dont have it!! – OMG~…..
PRIVE u know, how can it be!

Okay… No chicken wings… No Hazelnut Latte… Assss…..

Waitress came out with this winning suggestion:
“What about MILKSHAKE?”

FAINT!~~

Do i look like I’m the Milkshake category?
Why did she even suggest that?
Errr.. Because I look damn young?

Sobs… Lamb kept laughing – his ass off. Literally.

Okay, the can’t go wrong choice: Mocha (ice)

And that’s Lamb with his mouth-watering cake.
And this picture is good enough to hide his identity.

Anw, the hangout at prive – outdoor was perfect, with that cooling breezy feel.
Totally my kinda aftnoon.
I so hope i can do that again.

Just this time, mayb on my own, with some magazines, no time constraints.

No schedule.
No appointment.
No naggings.
No hustle & bustle….

All the time in the world………….

Yes, I’ve been putting everyone on top of my list, above myself.
Guess you’re right. feel so useless about myself.
being emo and stuff.

Spread my wings and fly. Biggest wish ever.

Today, Tuesday.
Marks the first day of me, being me.

We all need to.

I have been in the workforce for past 2 yrs and still going.’
Been through quite a bit. Done quite a bit. Spent quite a bit.
- Haha.

I never knew i would be where i am today, and definitely not sure how the route in future will take me.
But i guess we all just need to go through it step by step, slowly but surely.

Have dreams to fulfill, ppl to take care of, ppl to miss along the way, ppl to heartache over and ppl to celebrate life with.
Still trying to figure out how to handle those all at one time.

Things which used to matter alot to me, didnt matter that much anymore.
Things which I never knew i would fight so hard for, i see myself living  to see my dreams fulfilled.

Anyhow, i’ll either try to do more updating in 2011, or close it before my bday.
Kinda grow out of these stuff. Dont enjoy as much as i used to. Or maybe my life has become more mundane.
Or that’s the impact of FB over our lives!

Love
Lin

How’s Xmas for all? i guess mine was a simple and heartwarming one.
What a break for me this christmas. Did my soul some good, but damaging to the savings account.

Hahaha…

I really hope my 2011 will be better than 2010. Really, i hope so.

Sorry for this brief writing. I guess i’m just not so into blogging anymore.
Grew out of it i think?

Cheers, Everyone. Perhaps it will be the last post of this blog, ever?

Anyway, i should suppose you babes out there have more?
Hehe…

I dont understand why isit when i have so many shoes but i’ll only wear that same 2 pairs…
Shucks! ~~

Some updating to be done. But honestly, i can recall everything at once. Shall pull out whatever that i can remem, will that be okay?

Firstly, SHANGHAI DOLLY not a place that i’d frequet, in the past, but i do now.
Starting to love the crowd and addicted to Canto songs and some chinese tunes.

Making me reeeaaaalll CHEENA. Ok. I am now, but so what?

Best part, i got to meet an old schoolmate.
Not that she’s old, neither she’s oldschool. Hahha.. She’s real young and all of life!
Beside her is Cyndi. Her friend, my new friend. They’re both LUNAR fan, well. But just happened to keep them a dolly a little while longer, because, MISS GOH – Me, is there! :p

That nightlife aside. Halloween was just last weekend. Or was it last last weekend?
See below.

HUNGRY GHOST – This alex,
just had to protect his bowl of whatever-you-call-that which seemingly looked more appetizing than mine!
Didnt had to dress up, looked exactly like one scary hungry ghost, effortlessly.
I bet you all would agree!

I just thought this LAO FU ZI looked soooo interesting. Ken helped me took a picture with him.
A DEAD lao fu zi. Ahhahaha…

Ahha!! That’s ken below. How can we miss putting an arm over the sexy law enforcer at such instance?
SOOOo sexy. WeeeWEET!! I bet crime rates rockets with policewoman looking like this. Either they’ll invite trouble, or boys dont mind making trouble just to exchange blows with ‘em! Sexy & Naughty!
Now, Who needs santarina? :p

Okay, this FB profile pict got me afew lame remarks. I’m like having constipation.
So freggin’ ugly. But i dont know why i didnt mind putting them up. It’s just too funny for anyone to miss that look on my face!

Excuse me, where’s the nearest toilet? :p

Couple of days ago, went AIA to do some servicing with my Aunt. Dropped some riders off her policy. (which increase 5 yearly) At her age, she’s paying so much for just that extra coverage, so we decided to drop that, so friends, you might wanna read into your AIA policy details ’bout that.

Aaaaanyway. Here’s my Aunt. I look like her, dont i? And she used to be a model. So proud of her. Capable woman.
Mom always reminded me when i was young, to grow up and be a woman like my aunt. Independent and capable.
And my aunt just told me that i’ll be a NUN next time for spending so much time with this thing called W.O.R.K.. Ahhaha.. Neh-mind la. I have YING YING ma…

Oh ya, and D only proper meal before i fell really sick. And this Mr Tan just cant get away from work.
Oh well,…. Who am i to say him, right? haha..

Keep ya guys updated again, soon!

I asked myself again and again, over and over again
“what’s it that i didnt do right? How do i make sure i do well, consistently”

My level of  patience has been put to a test of it’s threshold. I’m maxing it.

I’m trying to regain my self-confidence.
I keep trying and trying. I’m just tired.
But honestly no one really gives a damn.

I try, i fall, i stand back up on my feet again.
I cried and shed tears of bitterness.

It’s really tough to put up with this fight.
But i cannot give up, when the rest of my comrades are  still fighting for their yr end goals.

Like he said, it matters how you finish your race.
Finish it strong.

I shall not allow myself to wallow in bitterness and self-negativities.

So what now?

Get back up on your feet and continue running,
GOH YI LIN!!!!

This is a special dedication, to d special someone.

Bitter sweet.
<3

When u thought everyone else had given up hope on you,
you’ll always have me.
I hope you’ll grow up to be a wise,
handsome young fine man someday and
continue to be this genuine and full of joy to everyone around you.

Jie Loves.
<3